>I’m angry. Mostly it’s frustration that’s boiling over and calling itself anger. Reminding myself that it is just a feeling and not much else, doesn’t seem to be helping. For some reason I keep thinking that tomorrow will be better. Well, it isn’t.
One bright light is the consistent round of prayers that dominates the morning and evening. Soemtimes I find myself wishing that they took longer to say, so I keep slowing it down, trying to stretch it out. That doesn’t always work, because as everyone knows, life is very good at foiling the best laid plans. Still, it is a calm spot in what are usually days frought with something bordering on despair.
Of course, my problems are important to exactly no one else but me, and I do keep that in mind. It’s for that reason that Intercession is so important. Praying for other people does a lot more for me than just praying for myself. Something I’ve learned is that when I’m utterly miserable it is a good thing to offer all of it to God on behalf of someone else. I suppose that’s the creative way to use suffering, give it away to God so it might benefit another.
So, that’s what I’m doing. Give it to God, so others may suffer less.